as I sit here surveying my life... the house by the sea is done. All on the surface is superb, my dreams, schemes are there for all to see, very lovely it all looks too. However my heart isn’t in it. I can’t actually pinpoint what is lacking?
It surely isn’t the orchids which against all odds have flowered, the lighting which for women of a certain age casts the most gentle of lights? What exactly?
Ancient to modern, not for me.
Admitting this I feel shallow and to most I am, however the time has come to admit this living cheek by jowl by the sea was a mistake...
‘A wise man changes his mind, a fool never does!’
We are moving...
brave to admit that a decision and a move made was not right..
ReplyDeleteIt took a lot of soul searching, once the decision was made I felt different. A huge weight was lifted from my shoulders, the spring was back in my step, the old cheery me is once again to the fore.
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I understand how you feel and it's better to do it now, now that you've realised it's not 'right' for you. We never know if we've done the right thing until it's done, if you know what I mean. Someone will love it and snap it up.
ReplyDeleteThey already have Joan, the first folk through the door. I am loathe to say more as it is early days.
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Good! Enjoy the house hunting, listen to your heart and go with it!
ReplyDeleteIt is only now I realise how much this wrong move was undermining my usual happy go lucky self. As soon as we found somewhere I just knew. I don’t want to say too much in case I jinx the whole shebang. Watch this space!
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A shame but house hunting will be fun!
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Done, just trying not to get too excited Joy!
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I know exactly how you feel - our year in town was just so wrong ( not helped by illness getting worse and not being able to travel as planned) people thought we were nuts moving again but I love it back in the country. You have to be comfortable in a home.
ReplyDeleteWe used to walk along the prom in Aldeburgh and see people looking in all the windows of the houses ( actually mostly holiday cottages) and think that although it would be good to be just a step away from the beach and sea, we would hate to live so close to so many people walking by.
Couldn’t agree more Sue, trouble was I couldn’t see that far ahead, all I saw was the romance of the view. I didn’t see the families or hear the attendant noise. We have, fingers crossed, found a tucked out of the way, yet near enough cottage with garden birds and trees’n’stuff. I will keep you posted.
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Isn't it great when a weight is lifted. I look forward to seeing the 'knew' place when you're ready. Fingers crossed for it all to go through smoothly. x
ReplyDeleteThank you, I am so lucky to have such supportive folk who take the time out to give me their take on my worries... much appreciated!
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I hope that it all goes smoothly for you and look forward to seeing your next abode! Will you have much to do to it? ...or just move in and enjoy?
ReplyDeleteAfter this, just move in and be. I’m getting too old for the excitement, I’ve decided!?!
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Thank goodness we are all different and that most of us find if not our perfect niche than a place we are happy to be in. You made a mistake and while the sea view is lovely for some it's not for you (how does your husband feel, or is he happy to move to make you happy?) I live in suburbia and while nowhere is perfect, I don't mind a view of rooftops and the distant view of the sea. I don't think I'd like to be in the depths of the countryside, I would hate the feeling of isolation which Sue and you prefer. My ideal with be a river view but the cost of that is prohibitive in this part of the country. But wherever you choose to go, Lettice, I hope you will be able to settle and be much happier. Do keep posting, we would miss your lovely sense of humour if you didn't! Well, I know I would! The orchids are lovely, by the way.
ReplyDeleteMargaret P
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‘We’ made a mistake: must confess I felt press-ganged into buying this house as we had a cash buyer who was keen to get into our wonderful cottage. We didn’t think it through, easy to see that now!
DeleteI will keep posting Margaret, as it gladdens my heart to share my some might say warped view on life...
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